When i wake up...

a birthday come and past,
reminded i just spent another year without you here,
my world fills with darkness,
tears flow from my eyes,
and i listen,
i listen to my heart pounding in my ears,
my thoughts jumping through my mind,
nothing is in order,
not anymore,
because i just spent another year without you,
i spent 365 more days remembering how i was before,
its been six years,
and the memories still have yet to fade,
i was a ten year old little girl,
with all the promise of making it somewhere, someday,
i was happy, then,
i loved to smile, then,
i loved to feel, then,
then...but now,
i wake up every morning with the memories of when you were still here,
i wake up to the reminder im here,
and your not,
i wake up to a fucked up life that i cant control anymore,
and i wake up just to remember no one can take your place.

by lost2theWorld
posted on 04/24/2008