What I Lack

You know you want this
Don’t you dare lie
You know you need this
Don’t you dare cry

You were weak and alone
When I grabbed your heart
You were on your own,
Being torn apart

I saved you from the hurt
That was suffocating your soul
Your life was sadly inert,
Until you found me to console

You know you feel great
When you drop every pound
You’re erasing all of the hate
With this new control you’ve found

“Just five more, that’s all.”
You quell their desperate stares
They just want you to fall
No one really cares

I am your only friend
No one loves you more than I
They want to lead you to and end,
Where I will help you fly

The numbers plunge down
Keep it up, you’re doing fine
Don’t give me that frown
You’re pathetic, no crying.

Don’t touch that you fool!
It’s all just a game
I know the hunger’s cruel
But you’ll be the one to blame

You’ve ruined it now!
You finally gave in
I was showing you how,
But you let the fear win

Here you are kneeling down,
Hand in mouth, softly crying
In regret you will drown
As you do this you’re dying

See what happens to you
When you let yourself think?
Our relationship’s through
You severed that link

Now I watch you binge
I watch you purge
I watch you cringe
I watch you splurge

Every meal to the bathroom,
As if they’ll never know
You’re laced with doom
You won’t stand another blow

The first time you were kissed
By that blade that you hide
I knew I was missed
Because I was you guide

You stay all alone
Bleeding days out
No other way’s been shown
And you’re shaded by doubt

Softly days float by
Do you even care?
Each meal a new lie
My dear, life’s not fair

Every time you turn your head
I laugh behind your back
You’ll keep this up ‘till you’re dead
You can’t make up for what you lack

by fade
posted on 05/10/2008