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There was a girl, at a time, in a place far away
in her mind, it was all so surreal.
always laughing, with friends, and family galore..
things were good, things were great, there was more.
happiness was the only emotion she knew
to think sadness was present, was simply askew
no one hurt, no one lied, no unpleasent surprise..
until she woke up, and found truth.

She’s a girl, it is now, in this place, no where else.
Her mind is the place she calls her escape
where she runs when she wants to hide.
from the hurt, the tears, the pain and the fears
she fights through, every day.
things aren’t good, things aren’t great they’re just things.
nothing more, nothing less than you see.

Greatful to be where she is in this world
is an understatement, no doubt.
but something is wrong, deep on the inside
and she just can not figure it out.
Why the days she can fake, with perfection, a smile
and help those who need it much more..
but the minute the sun sets low in the sky
her knees weaken, and she hits the floor.
The sickness kicks in, her stomach in knots
waiting for her scheduled breakdown.
As she struggles so hard, to refocus her thoughts
her eyes water, and tears start to flow
at that moment, right then the worst thing she can do
is let anyone see, because they would know.

She isn’t okay, in any way shape or form
her emotions display like a terrible storm
destroying whatever is caught in their path
and in this case her mind, is the victim of that.
she can’t think straight, or speak
it’s getting hard just to breathe right.
and sometimes she wonders
is living life worth the fight?

by Danielleybelley
posted on 04/02/2008