These Feelings I Have

These feeling are always changing,
for one heart to another.
Always confusing my mind.
Making me suffer sleepless nights,
taking up all of my time.

These feelings are always shifting,
from love to hate,
to happiness to depression,
Leaving me in a state of mind,
that is not really,
in the realm of reality,
but stuck in a fantasy.

These feelings always distract me,
from other things,
that are right in my face,
but are too blurry to see,
Covering my eyes
in a vail of black.
Darkening my world,
and my heart.

These feelings always hurt me.
Setting me up for the pain of rejection.
Tricking me into thinking that i am alright.
It swallows me whole,
and pushes the securities away.

Now I see,
That these feelings that I have always had,
have always been for just one person.
But the false feelings can still give me hope.
Still keep me living,
breathing, dreaming.
Helping me survive for another day.

by XangelicXshadowsX
posted on 03/13/2008