The First Tear

There are times when I can't sleep
I just lay awake
Alone with my feelings

Feelings can be beautiful aswel as painful
Mine are both
Of love and the future
Of hurt and suffering

I must fight
And keep the tears from coming
As I can't stand it when they do
As soon as the first one falls
I canot stop it

At times it feels so unfair
Spending the days pretending everythings fine
Surely if I lie to people for long enough
I'll start to belives my lies

Or am I just clouding the situation
Because at the end of my day
No one sees the first tear
But they'll be there to witness my last

by belleamour
posted on 12/19/2007