The BreakDown

I know that crying, acidic selfish tears
never solved anything.
the good times never shook me from this trance,
which made me blind for years.

To late you came into my life,
and to early you are leaving it.
I am falling down in you leaving town,
never to be picked up again,
for my peices were too Microscopically shattered.

I wish I could tell you,
every feeling that aches me,
But I am too afraid.
Afraid of the akwardness,
afraid of the strain it might put on our friendship.

I sleep with my lights on,
because the darkness never preoccupies my thoughts.
My heart never seems to reast the whole night through,
because as hard as i try to rid myself of the pain,
all i can dream about is your face.

I wish we had an eternity,
but our time, always seemed to be cut short.
As much as It pains me when you are away,
I can't, but i try to, bring myself to see,
that soon, close to me you'll never stay.

I know that you love her,
and i hate myself for thinking ill of her,
and I know that you are much better off than i am,
but the selfish part of me still hopes,
that for us, time would stop.

Now I have come to realize,
that I can't live with, or without you.
Partly because you won't give yourself away,
and partly because, far away from you, i can't stay.

These feelings are eating me alive,
like a newly born parasite, hungry and uncontrollable.
I don't know how long i can survive.
If i don't get this off my chest,
it would begin, yet another breakdown.

by XangelicXshadowsX
posted on 04/22/2008