Thank you... really

Well...
You can't see your own mistakes...
You can't see what you're doing to me...
You can't see my pain...
and the heartache you're putting me through...
You can't change yourself and then expect that everybody will accept your change...
I could accept... and I will accept...
but it was too fast...
I couldn't realize what happened in this short time you left for me to let it in!
So please accept my decision and my need for time to think about everything...
I don't need your accaptence ... you know... but I hope you'll have insight...
You need to think about what you did...
what you're doing...
And what you will do, too...
Cuz you can't go on like this...
Every time when something happened you need to take your mind off things...
But you'll never realize that something's happened...
And if you need your time... to think about things...
The only thing you do is to drink alcohol...
what ever you think about... you go to buy alcohol... and drink it ...
maybe you think that your problems and sorrows will go down with alcohol...
but there's another problem... THAT BASTARDS CAN SWIM!
And that's probably something you'll never know... neither understand...
You left your eyes closed since they caused you so much pain...
but you chose the wrong way...
and now you want to walk this way... cuz you think you're not able to change the way you chose!
But I'm trying to tell you, that YOU CAN... if you want...
I don't might telling you that because I want to cause you more pain...
I'm telling you that because I love you more than anything and anybody else...
You know you mean the world to me!
Everything you need, is someone you can talk to...
Someone for you to help you without saying anything... just to listen to what you have to say...
and then things will get better for you...
And I'm really sorry for not being this person....
cuz you don't want me to be...

And now... you are the one who's causing me more pain....
.... Thank you... really...

by oOSilentSoulOo
posted on 11/15/2007