Scared

I’ve acknowledged the fact
That I lack intelligence
The ability to smile
Integrity and elegance
I’m ignorant and stubborn
The list goes on
Disrespectful and reckless
And I’m always wrong
Not strong, but weak
And I’m a freak
On many different levels
And my future’s looking bleak
I don’t speak my mind
But if I did you’d be offended
I’m broken on the inside
And I can never be mended

I am nothing
But something very ugly
And this is why I cry
‘Cause no one loves me
I’ve tried to change
But nobody cares
Oh God, I cannot stay this way
‘Cause I am scared

I’m aware I’m unprepared
Unorganized
All I feel is despair
All I speak is lies
I’m defiant and depraved
Disgusting too
I always misbehave
And I like to argue
And it’s true that I’m dumb
‘Cause some might say
That I have no common sense
And I’d be inclined to agree
But this is me
Unfortunately
I’m lost and alone
And it’s the way I’ll always be

by MechanicalAnimal
posted on 04/13/2008