Save me?

The world crumbles
The pieces finally fall
My life is breaking,
Shattering around me.

Just leave! Just Go!
Screaming at these demons
Leave me alone!
I want to slice my wrist open

Make this disappear
Slit my throat
Pull the trigger
Down this bottle of pills

Drag broken glass across scared flesh
Looking in a mirror of shame
Watch as I drink my life away
Cough, choke it up!

Darkness surrounding...
Floating, drifting, numb
Nothing-ness, no pain
Just peace...

Beeping, beeping that draws me near
Voices familiar and different
Closed eyes twitch
The light is to bright

Whimpered moans, water...
Fingers move, burning...
Eyes flicker open, life.
Running feet, shouts of joy.

DR.- Everything looks to be in order.
Me- What does that mean?
Mom- Dr. will she be alright?
Me- I'm awake, aren't I?

Dr.- That depends on her.
Me- I'm awake, aren't I?
Mom- It's been two weeks...
Me- HELLO! I'm right here, awake!!

Dr.- Don't worry, she'll wake with time.
Me- But I am awake, Why can't you see that?!?!
Hands, cold and unfeeling
pulse dropping, alarms sound.

This long deafing silence
Rushing to save,
Save what? who?
Me? Why?

Theres a pain in my chest
Pain... feeling...
Life, I'm alive.
I don't want to die.

Tears fall from behind closed eyes...


by mariana
posted on 05/14/2008