if only they knew...

nobody knows i hate myself
they all say they love me
i scoff at their stupidity
if only they knew...
i hate the way i look
they all say i'm pretty
just on the outside
if only they knew...
i hate my eyes
they all say they hold so much beauty
yeah-and pain too
if only they knew...
i hate my weight
they all say i'm not fat
but still i starve
if only they knew...
i hate my scars
they all say i shouldn't have done it
i still do
if only they knew...
i hate my voice
they all say it's sweet
they've never heard me scream
if only they knew...
i hate the word "love"
they all say "i love you"
i smile and say "i love you too"
if only they knew...

by moonlightbroken
posted on 01/10/2008