I Wish

I wish the blade in my hand wasn’t so bloody.
I wish I didn’t crave for the numbing feeling it gives me.
I wish he wouldn’t stare at me with such judging stares.
I wish everyone would just let me be.

I wish the only way I felt safe wasn’t by shutting people out.
I wish that I didn’t have to pretend that I was ok,
Every minute of every hour of every year.
I wish that the other me was the real me.

I wish someone would come and save me.
I wish someone would just reach out and tell me
“If you want me to I’ll let you be.”
“But what I want to say to you is,
I would never hurt you,
I will protect you,
you’re not lower than scum,
because you’re a human being who deserves to live;
just like everyone else.
Don’t be scared I’m just trying to say
I love you.”

Though as I gaze at the midnight sky
And see a shooting star pass by
The only wish that comes to mind is…
I wish I was dead.


by wantxtoxrun
posted on 12/31/1969