Hopeless

Chasing the pills with vodka each time
Triple distilled, it's Smirnoff, the best
Wearing my favorites, all soaking wet
Ready to die now, my mind is at rest

I lay in the tub, full to the top
The water's so deep, maybe I'll drown
Wont be long now, I feel really numb
My body sinks now, way further down

My end is so near, it's eager to come
They better not shed a tear when I die
A panic had come much worse than before
It pushed on my chest with each stupid lie

I'd learned this before, it never sunk in
Damn am I stupid, I've made this whole mess
Again I wish to just go back in time
Prevent the events my letters confess

I'm sorry to put you all through such pain
But soon you'll all see it was just for the best
I know you'll forget my face within weeks
A few more hours, they'll have laid me to rest

by FreeFalling
posted on 02/21/2009