A date with the knife tonight...

Don't know what to do
I think I am through
I lost my family
They hate me

I don't have but two friends in life
God I'm ready to pick up that knife
Today I lost my job and I don't know what to do
I'm afraid my step dad will say I'm through with you

Why did this happen to me
I just want to scream
I'm sick of this life
So so close to picking up that knife

How am I going to find another job
No one is hiring
I have car payments to make
Why did this happen to me
I've done made my mistakes

God I asked for you to help me
Can't you see
I don't ask for anything
But when I needed you the most you ignored me...

I'm ready to kill myself
I can't be living this life
I going to pick up that blade tonight
And this time nothings going to stop me

I'm sick of this god-damn life
I'm tired of living it
I lost my job
Most of my family hates me
My step uncle the one who always helped me is in jail

You just keep taking things God
Why make me suffer
Why take things little by little
Just take my FUCKEN LIFE ALREADY!!

by Hiddenot
posted on 10/02/2009