Stuck

Here I am stuck again
stuck in the same place I always end up
in love,
no not posibble,
theres no such thing as falling in love
at our age,
but do I love him
yes this is possible
see im at the borderline,
borderline of love and hatred
but some do say to fall in love, you have to hate first
but i wont let myself
wont let myself become this person again
im crying out begging for mercy
from this
this life i live
day bye day
i make mistakes
day by day
i make heartbreaks
because i cannot love
cannot feel this way
ive surrounded myself with this wall
this wall of protection
around me and my heart
i wanna tear it down but it will not part
from me
and when i see him
i wanna be with him
wanna spend my day with him
i constantly watch
but still this wall
its begining to get in the way
he isnt going to wait forever
and i have no clue what i can do
to explain
this because i am stuck
stuck and dont know how to get out.

by cupcake
posted on 11/13/2009