Promises I never Break

I swore to myself
I wouldn’t live in the past
And I haven’t been
But there’s this one thing
I just can’t let go
I’ve built a steal wall around my heart
Because of the things I saw
And the lessons I’ve learned as I grew up
Right now it’s turning to ice
I’ve got to keep my heart so cold
Frozen solid
Have to keep the ice around it
To keep it from getting broken

I know better than to give in to this
I’ve seen so much pain
Come from just this
People living with suffering
Just to hold on to this
I swore to myself that this wouldn’t be me
Wouldn’t live my own life
The way people say it should be
They all fall so fast
And let it take over their lives
But deep down inside
My heart remains ice

Colder than cold
Thicker that bricks
I can’t let it melt
I can’t let it win
It’s getting so close
So I’ll distance myself
Remember my past
And the heartache I’ve felt
The pain that I’ve dealt with
Just to hold on
Just to go on

At some point in time
I let hope of love go
Didn’t want anything to do with it
Didn’t care if it showed
In my own broken home
So I’ve lived this way
For so many years
It was easy for me
So I wouldn’t shed tears
It was easy to get angry
This I know best
Easy to shut out the world
And all of the rest

Now I’m suddenly hit
With this forbidden thing
I think that it’s coming
And it’s coming for me
It can try to knock down
This steal wall that I’ve built
But the harder it tries
The bigger the shield
It can knock and knock
But I won’t let it in
I can’t let it in
I can’t let it win…..

by AdiSaStErNoTsEeN
posted on 05/02/2008