Against My Will, Trying Something New

i dont know where this is leading
death?
more pain?
or peace?
And closure?
after it...
will i miss you?
will you still have forgotten me?
will they still label me depressed..?
I hate change
Im never ready for it
And even if I am
I ignore what I foresee
So will you just leave me alone
Alone to change
With my consent... of course
My skin will remain unburned for months
not a drop of blood left from my lighter
the blisters will heal
as I become whom
I SHOULD be...
Who you want me to be....
mother fucking HAPPY!!!
I wonder if ill like it
i mean, being happy and all
ignoring the pain
putting on a dumb mask
feeling helpless with my feelings
here it goes becoming someone
im not... wish me luck...!

by McRluvr
posted on 03/02/2008