A Special Poem

I broke the fall
Then I made the pieces disappear
Even though they're still out there.
Its hidden in the dark
Somewhere special in my heart
No one will see
No one even knows
All the tears that I cry
My head sunk deep into my pillow
My fears confronted
But I am not scarred
Its a funny feeling
My life torn in two
Thats me, but then again who are you?
I don't know how to feel
I don't know
I just don't know
The pieces cut and scrape
But no one knows
No one can
Cuz it will make everyone sad
They will put me somewhere
I don't want to be
Maybe with a shrink
I like to fix my own problems
And so I have
So I'll do it again
But the conclusion has already come to my head
So I'll smile and put on my face
You might think I'm fake
But I'm not
Thats just me without the other half whispering in my ear.
Without the other half making my life a miserable wreck
Without it putting doubts in my head.
Filling my mind with thoughts and worries
Making every moment alone
A living torture to my body and mind
Thats why I hate it
Hate being alone because thats when
The other half of my personality takes over
Controlling me
Beating me
Making me cry
Then its says goodbye
Leaves me to cry and cry and cry

by Jade21love
posted on 06/17/2007