When I Should'nt, I Love You

Slideing down the halls, The ones i know so well,
I look into your eyes, they look like waves so blue but gray,
Gray from all the lies you say, they look so sad and blue,
But thats probably because of all the shit that you do,
I loved you, you made me, You hate me, you break me,
This was my life, my dreams, and your night,
And people say you will always move on, but thats not true,
No matter what i think about, the thoughts always have to lead to you,
I am always wondering why you hate me, why i had to go,
When you will talk to me again, and why dont you care,
I wonder so many questions, life sucks its never fair,
Love is suppost to be hard, not suppost to be easy,
But ive been through hell and back and still dont have you,
I still love you, i still care too much, and i need you here with me,
If you would open up your eyes, see the way i cry, its not easy feeling like i do,
I bet you don't feel like me too, It sucks you dont care, mostly how your not there,
And in my dreams i see you, but you always go away, you cant stay,
And i see you in the fall, and when your falling, and i always seem to see you,
But this is good-bye, and yes i will cry, because this is not my decision,
I cant stop whats happening, i have really tryed, but the way the world works i just cant,
I wont see you anymore, this is what i always hoped for, but now that im going, it blows,
First three months of summer, i wont see you its a bummer, but yet im kinnda glad,
Then theres a whole year, im a freshman your just a middle school guy,
Im one year older than you, and five years more mature,
But i still love you, theres no way i couldnt,
Even when i shouldnt, i still do.

by aqua4ever
posted on 04/23/2008