Win This War

Why won't you talk to me?
Why won't you even acknowledge my presence?
I don't want to continue living like this.
You think I like being invisible?
I don't!
I hate this!
Can't you see what you're doing to me?
Your unspoken rejection cuts me down deep like a knife.
It's a pain that won't go away.
It's always there, hovering just under the surface, waiting till my guard's down.
I can't find the strength anymore to defend myself.
This is war, and I just don't have any fight left in me.
If you just looked at me, you would see the struggle that I go through every day.
But you don't see.
To you, I'm just another girl, lost amid the crowd.
I don't know what happened to make you decide to not be my friend anymore, and I don't want to know.
But can't we just forget the past?
Why must we continue to bring up childhood fights and childhood battles?
If you could just look past the hard mask that protects me, you'd see the real me, trying so hard to let her light shine through, and seeming to fail every time.
But you won't.
No matter how hard I try to show you who I am, you won't really see.
I can't change the past and who I was, but I can change the present and who I am today, and who I will be in the future.
And if I just look hard enough, I can find someone who brings that bright, shining soul out of me, and that person will give me the strength I need to win this war.

by TiffantAnnLoganAdams
posted on 10/23/2009