some birthday huh?

my birthday
is three days away.

i should be so happy that im turning 15.
and that Jakes going to be my first at a lot of things.
and that i get to hang with my friends.
and get high for the first time.

but im not.
im not happy
or
excited.

im just, just blank..
theres nothing in my heart,
no happiness, or sadness..

its just empty.

im so confused about what to do about my birthday weekend.

my friends
and
my ex
want me to do things
that im not so sure i should do...

im so confused..

help
give me an answer....

by Kookie3104
posted on 10/08/2008