withdraw

oh my god i did it
i did this to myself
rock bottom i hit
in and of itself

The world hurts me
breaks me up inside
The people ignore me
feeling of love denied

What did i do
Why and why again
cut myself for who
how and when will i mend

This cycle haunts me
every fucking day
Lost in thoughts, a bee
stings my heart a fray

The delusion is you see
im not alone at all
i have the best free
love above all

The love of my life
i hurt
shattered again, a knife,
of this i am alert

He loves me eternally
as i do for him
so why do i act abnormally
and tear apart whats within

I feel so terrible to put him through it
time and time assure
I don’t deserve his love, I admit,
Or feeling secure

I have to change drastically
Or my worst fear of all
Give it up efficiently
To regain it all

I love him dearly so I have to withdraw
Be strong through my misery
My new written law

by heartopen
posted on 02/05/2008