where do i go from here?

broken, shattered, burnt-
hateful, beautiful, scared-
arrogant, faithful, weird-
my crystal eyes and pitiful lies
shelter me through one last fight
tick tock goes the clock
i shudder-
trying to block my mind
to keep ahold of my sanity.
to stay afloat in this sea of crazy
memories that are haunting me
"Ain't ever gonna be alone again."
whispers and spilled tears-
you left me lying here,
a lock without a key
a chain without an end.
sometimes its hours before it stops
curled tight in a ball, trying not to break.
holding myself till the screams fade away.
tears burn away skin
i am nothing but fire
burning from the inside
where do i go- when its all over?
sleep and wake, only to relive it over and over.
each cut stitched up,
where do i go form here?

by meltedsnowman
posted on 09/14/2009