The Suicide Note

I wish it wouldn't have turned this way.
When I wake, I feel it.
Through the day, I fight it,
Only to look forward to the same the next day.

Mom and Dad, you tried.
What my purpose here was I do not know,
You know what? Fuck prose.

It's time I die, I don't care what people will think. I 'll be dead and they can drink. I'll be gone, they can sing church songs.

There will be nothing, only death. No heaven no hell, no breath. It's over, thats it, there is no explanation. My life shall just end. Does this poem not flow well enough for you? Why do I care I am going to die.

What is the point of causing more sorrow by living when I can die and eliminate it tomorrow? Yes, they'll cry, that sucks for them, but I am a bad person and marked in sin.

Nothing has turned out the way it was planned. I was supposed to go to college, get married, buy land. It's the American way and what we all do, but I turned my back on that too.

What do I have? Untapped talent, a depressed life, no wife, video games. I have cigarettes, tobacco, and beat up car. Thats it. Thats my life.

I have friends and it's a matter of time til I push it too far.

For those who read this, don't take anything for granted. Nothing is simple, many things are enchanted. But love the life you lead. To this message, take heed.

Wake each morning looking forward to the day. Thank your family that they brought you up that way. Treat your friends with the utmost respect. Approach everything you do, with a sense of solemn pride.

Use your talents, don't settle for less. If you have a dream, you seize it with no failure to confess. You can be what you want and can do anything. Take advantage and believe in your talent.

You'd think some one like me would have it real easy, it's just not that way, and I don't know why. My life is in shambles, and I am 24 and I cry.

But to all those out there who read this letter, take heed, learn something, and make your life better. You can be anything, you can be anyone, I'm sorry my life hasn't been more fun.

I would keep going just to entertain you. I could use cute bylines and make great sayings just to contain you. But I am sorry. It's just not that simple. It doesn't all come together, it doesn't make sense. Thats life. It is what it is, and mine is really bad, but please value you yours. live it to the fullest.

goodbye.



by bking84
posted on 06/14/2008