The girl with no reason to live

The Feelings inside of me
i can hold no longer
the pain shatters me
like a million needles
fear is not what i have
shame is not the same
as i once was
He says i am dead to him
he wishes i was never born
he hates me
as his only daughter
he says it hurts him
to look at me
he says i am invisible
My fear rate deepens
as i fall into
a pit of despair
does anyone want me?
does anyone care?
that is all
that is going through my mind
as i walk through
the crowded streets
of my deserted home town
i think of the times
we had he taught me
how to walk
how to speak
how to teach
and now he see's nothing
but a girl in black
with a pierceing in her lip
with scars all over
blood flowing down her
yellow arms
filled with shame and defeat
"You are nothing but a suicidal prick"
he says to me
as he slaps me hard
i look at him with darkened
eyes and slowly nod my head
"you are right"
i say to him as i put my
cold fingers around my neck
"i do not deserve to live
for i have made your life
so unbearable
that you cannot even look at
your own daughter
your own flesh and blood!!"
i grab the trigger
one flewed motion
"I'm sorry daddy"
i say to him
"I'm sorry i am such a terrible person"....
the gun drops slowly
as i fall into the world
down below....

by Freewriter91
posted on 07/01/2008