skin

I grasp my blade and slip away
Leave my heart out to decay
Wrap around the numbing ache
Waiting for myself to wake
Drag that knife across my wrist
Think of everything I’ve missed
When did my life slip on by?
When did I stop trying to cry?
Now I look in the mirror at this broken teen
And notice all of the things unseen
A shattered hope, a broken heart
Never stood a chance from the start
I show you all my lovely fake smile
Carefully hiding the pain all the while
Hurt let out with bleeding scratches
My hope burning like a house of matches
I’m disappearing with every breath
Embedded with small hopes for death
I’m sorry I can’t hold your dreams
I’m sorry but I must hide my screams
I know I’m supposed to be stronger
But I can’t hold on much longer
You should see your little girl’s skin
Laced with cuts from the pain within
But I can’t let you see my hurt
So I cover it under my long shirt
Meticulously hide each and every scar
Can’t show you what they really are
Not wounds but pieces of my pain
Not cuts but red tears cried in vain
Every reason I’m wrong cut into my skin
So I’ll never overlook what I could have been
Never let myself forget
Never stop with the regret
Now the scars are everywhere
And I don’t even fucking care
Leave me to bleed
Pay no heed
Leave me to cry
Leave me to die

Because inside myself I already have

by fade
posted on 06/04/2008