Safer Without Me

You’re holding me
But I feel cold

It seems something is wrong
But it’s nothing to do with you

Trying to out run them
The nightmares in my head

I love you
And you love me

But something isn’t right
I never know what will happen next

Everything seems it should be perfect
But it isn’t and never will be

I try not to cry in front of you
Because I don’t know how to explain

Something seems to haunt me
Keep me from being me

I don’t want you to get hurt
But I’m afraid that’s what I’m doing

I can’t keep myself in check
I shouldn’t be with you

You deserve someone better
Someone being not me

Don’t try to find the answers
I fear they will never come

The bracelet keeps me safe
The bracelet holds it in

I’m not who you know me
I’m only me when you hold me in your arms

I broke that mirror
The one in the picture on the wall

I fall on purpose
I don’t deserve to walk anymore

The razors in the box haven’t come out for a while
That doesn’t mean they won’t come out again

Maybe t would better if you walked away now
It would be safer if you ran.

by behindunseenwalls
posted on 04/20/2008