Poems Through My Past

(THE FALL)
My last memory was of me laying,
half asleep in the living room.
I thought i rolled off the couch,
but landed far away with a "boom!"
(THE DREAM)
I thought I had this world figured out.
I thought I understood.
I thought that nothing could go wrong.
But I was wrong!
Why do people hate me?
Why am I so ignored?
Why must people trample the good-hearted?
Why must people be mean?
Why must this poem be read?
When its clear that nothing will change...
How the fuck can you do this to me?
Well this time I'm not gonna plea.
I loved you as a friend,
you were always ther for me.
Why are you gonna penalize me,
for being like everyone else.
I know you want better for me-but-
It's my life-I'll do what I want.
But I’ll still love you,
And if you only knew.
I’m the best you coulda had,
But now we are through.
Cause I love you with my soul,
It’s yours forever.
But you’ve hurt me so much,
It’s like you loved me never.
I hated this world and thought,
no one would care if I died.
Except a few, like my lover,
but I had kept my promise-I tried.
*We promised never to say goodbye... goodbye means forever...*
Back into the house.
Goodbye my love...
*slice*
As I sit here staring,
at my sliced up wrists.
I can't help thinking,
how you make me feel like shit.
But you say you love me,
bringing me out of my brain's dark pit.
but you're just a guy-you just want a good fuck.
even though I should know better.
You know what's happened to me,
how I've been passed around like a puck.
But I just can't accept,
that you were just like the rest.
And that you don't care about me,
I thought you were different,
and that I would never alone, fall.
But I'm over that now,
so fuck you-go rot.
you broke my already wounded heart, so now i'll have to say,
I love you with all my soul, for my heart's no longer there.
And you should know I'd never abandon,
my friends when they need me there.
And I don't think thats really fair,
you're supposed to be there when I fall.
don't promise if you wont go through.
But I just want your support,
cause you know I can't do this alone.
and like it or not your in this too,
pull out when the baby's all gone.
I mean why not? He's done it before,
my little phycopathic elf.
No matter what I could never leave him,
so for now I'll write these sad little rhymes.
I needed a sign of affection,
but in his eyes hate was all I could see.
And I sadly say I still love him,
though I wish that I did not.
For along with all our good times,
there are still the fights that we've fought.
The pain I've been put through,
both mental and physical.
After all this strife,
my life is still so dismal.
They are aiding in a girl's destruction,
and I hope for them to one day see.
I hope that they are happy
and they take pleasure in whats killing me,
because until then neither of us will ever be free.
Now it was my time,
finally-my turn to die.
My only one last thought,
was "for me, would anyone cry?"
As I fell to the ground,
with my one last breath I said,
"I love you with all my soul."
For my heart had stopped-I was dead.
He loved her still.
So he swallowed down pills.
In heaven they would reunite.
And overcome that horrible fight.
I looked on him from heaven,
as he kissed my lips goodnight forever.
He took the last knife to HIS heart,
and fell in a heap-to live again-never.
(The AWAKENING)
Dear God, am I going insane?
All the lies-will they ever stop?
Another day in the life of me.

by gothic666angel6
posted on 03/13/2007