Not Here

Like an insect decaying in the dirt
I've absorbed all your fucking hurt
Swallowing your black pills
Just to make me feel something
But I'll amount to nothing
And no one can disagree
'Cause all you see is a blank canvas
When you look at me

My life is like a dream
Fallen into reality
I'm a figment of your imagination
A figure of trepidation
I am a silhouette of madness
A smiling face of misery
And shit is all that I hear
Like a bad case of oral dysentery

I am not lost 'cause I was never here
I am the shadow on the wall, the bitter tasting tear

Cut away my death scars
And what is left of me
My war is almost over
And maybe then I can sleep
Upon my bed of nails
They continue to push me down
And in this sea of nothingness
I will surely drown

And my face is just a mask
And my mask is just a face
For all of you to recognize
Only to misplace
And your memory serves you correct
You would rather not see
‘Cause there’s a thousand ways to feel nothing
And they all live inside of me

I am not lost 'cause I was never here
I am the shadow on the wall, the bitter tasting tear

by LittleBoyLonely
posted on 03/07/2008