My Ultimate Battle

There are two sides of me
The Average Girl vs. The Inner Goth Girl.
Neither side wins, causing me to live a double life.

The Average Girl hangs around people of her race, listens to rap, pop, and classical music. Strengthens her mind by reading words of good knowledge.

The Inner Goth Girl hangs around friends with diverse backgrounds, listens to celtic and rock music, loves gothic art and dark poetry.

The Ultimate Battle:

The Average Girl never hides from the Inner Goth Girl, because she's accepted everywhere.
The Inner Goth Girl hides from the family and people of the same race as her, because she will not be accepted.

The Inner Goth Girl is anxious to get out, but the Average Girl locks her out every time she comes around her family and people of her race.

The Inner Goth Girl is the true identity.
She is a young black female who listens to celtic, rock, rap, pop, and classical music. She reads about faith, prayer and beliefs as well as enjoying gothic art and dark poetry. She can't allow other black people know that she enjoys celtic and rock music, gothic art and dark poetry. The black people would tell her she's weird.

If I had to choose who I wanted to be, I would pick the Inner Goth Girl.
Simply because I can't spend the rest of my life enjoying a part of me that I can't express and spend the rest of my life with a man who can't accept me as being a freak.

If I can't be a freak, I can't love an average man.
I can only fall in love with another freak.

My outer layer is average, my inner layer is a freak.

Now you know my ultimate battle.

by TheInnerFreak
posted on 05/25/2009