goodbye world, hello darkness

i finally broke.
i write this with tears.
no more torture.
i can't feel the stinging pain anymore.
unfortunately...
im staining the keyboard with my last blood.
*laughs* how ironic, huh?
i typed about how hurt i was before.
thats got nothing to where i am now.
i was pushed too far.
over the edge i go.
theres no way to turn back.
you all turned away.
left me in rain.
tears falling down my face.
what did i do to make you hate me so?
i guess i'll never know.
i've cut myself before.
but now i sliced away at my wrists.
cut my pain away.
wiped the blood off.
and cut out the last of my sanity.
i made it this far for 17 years.
i just couldn't hack it the rest of the way.
no support.
no friends.
not even you.
i loved you.
but what do you care.
i was just a toy for everyone to play with.
nobody quite cared enough.
but thats okay.
it was just enough to make me see.
exactly how invisible i was.
too many pills.
plenty more cuts and scars.
not enough alcohol.
no tears left.
so goodbye.
so long.
my final goodbye.
this is my note.
for you to see.
what you did to me.

by loveless
posted on 07/02/2009