Fear of Her

She frightens me,
With that fake smile.
And she see's what no one else can see.
I hate her with my entire soul.
The thing I hate most,
Is that she's always in control.
She doesn't know of real pain,
And of how I feel,
As I cry in the darkest rain.
To tell you the truth,
She scares me.
She has since our youth.
She turned my life into hell,
So that day in and day out,
I was living in a shell.
I thought she was doing good,
But boy was I wrong.
She did what only the devil would.
And now she's back in my life,
Scaring me,
And causing strife.
I'll hide in a corner when she knocks on the door,
Because I'll never give her,
What she's looking for.
She's looking for a dupe,
One to easily trick,
But I've already been down that loop.
Tears will fall down my face,
As I look upon her,
I notice her suitcase.
"Leave me alone." I'll beg.
But I know she won't,
And I cling to her leg.
"Please! Go away." I'll whisper through my tears,
I never expected her to show up,
After leaving me for a year.
She lifts my chin up and smiles,
That evil awful smile,
That I hadn't seen in awhile.
"I'll never leave you again."
She promises.
"It looks like you need a friend."
I scream as she touches me,
And her eyes narrow in disgust.
She bends down on one knee.
"I'll tell them everything. All the harm you've done,
They already hate you,
And you know I've won."
I shake my head in terror,
No, not again,
Was this God's error?
No, there is no God,
He wouldn't leave me with the devil,
So I just up and nod.
There was no way to avoid her,
I knew this was true.
Yet I still took the lure.
Now I sit in wonder and fear,
Waiting for the end,
And the last tear.
She's going to ruin the rest of my life,
And there's nothing I can do.
I can't even put up a fight.

by squirrelluver2
posted on 04/18/2008