Blind fate

Present disillusions-
Confusion of 'What's meant to be.'
:The easy way out impossible to achieve:

Not enough sleeping pills to kill
tomorrow's feared torture-
No vultures above my limp body rotting.
For my soul won't allow the end of breath.
:A death impossible to achieve:

Please God, let me bleed empty-
With the guarantee that this world ends with me.
A blackened masked wish.
:Whose granting is impossible to achieve:

Don't want to leave a Mother crying-
Dying inside for the rest of her life.
A two-sided knife,
That's making these dayz crazy in ways,
I'd never wish upon another.
To suffer like this, turn life bliss into shit.
:Whose disposal is impossible to achieve:

Once praised yesterdayz-
Erased by a single drunken mistake.
Now fate determined by the law's claws.
Stealing pride with manly rape; enraged assault.
Desecrating my thirst to survive.
No more tears to cry.
:An escape impossible to achieve:

Is my voice falling upon deaf ears?-
Thirty years of contribution,
Polluted by present disillusions,
Confusion of 'What should have been.'
:Release now possible to achieve:

by Judah
posted on 11/14/2009