Beautiful Disgrace

I sit on my bed
Wishing I were dead
Because my life just didn't improve
I hug the pillow tight to chest
Feeling even more depressed
I heave with every breath
As the pillow I hold is stained by my tears
My heart hurts like a thousand spears
I recap on my situation
I am not nearly understood
And I knew nobody would
Although there is only one person who did
Yet you see how I said it in pass tense
Because that one angel who actually made sense
Was torn away so brutally
I cry for her, I cry for me
I cry because it is my plea
My family has shattered into a million pieces
And my sense of comfort decreases
As I review the past events
My next few years are gone without a doubt
I just want to let my feelings out
For all to hear so that they might care
But I know I have to suffer from within
So that nobody will bear this awful sin of self-hatred
My sanity is hanging on a raw thread
Ready to break at any moment
This is what I have become
A lost soul who roams this god forsaken world aimlessly
And crying my tears shamelessly
Because I know that though this world, so cruel
Will have to end and I may be at peace

by CriedTheRavenNevermore
posted on 03/07/2007