Waves of Pain

Once again
A battle rages
Within myself
My heart, my soul, my mind

My heart cries endlessly
Again
My mind mocks
"I told you so"...
My soul
Is just weak

My soul just wants to move on
Just get over you
And in most ways I have

Even my heart
Is almost over you

But my mind
Is the one
Who aimlessly
Continues
To remind the others
Of
YOU

It's way too late
And I'm still up
Cursing you
And yet thanking you
For teaching me more
In 3 weeks
Than I'd ever learned in a year

But it doesn't mean
That I'm not filled with regret
And sorrow
And this dreaded pain
That comes in waves
Crashing upon me
Over and
Over
and
OVER

I told you once
That I'd just enjoy the ride
But that's when I didn't think
You'd just ignore me

I'm screaming into my pillow
Again
I'm staring out the window
Again
I'm thinking of you
Again
I'm crying inside
All the time

And this dreaded pain
That comes in waves
Crashing upon me
Over and
Over
and
OVER




by trueblessings
posted on 07/10/2009