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Light at the end of the tunnel

I could not ever see.

My grief for our loss

was too much to bare for me!

We were two single people

married to each other.

Together for ten years!

Who could ever wonder?

All I needed was a call

to tell me your alright.

Days went by endlessly,

my imagination took flight.

I worry for your safety,

you live so recklessly.

History repeats itself

at what could surely be.

I pray for you daily,

but these prayers are only good

for a man with free will

to do what he knows he should.

Our house was much too big

for me to take on alone.

Feelings of overwhelm-ness

cut me to the bone.

You were not there for me

in my many times of need.

My health began to suffer

so i chose to live, indeed.

I'd been abandoned and left

to pick up the pieces alone.

I've mustered up the strength somehow

to make it on my own.

I wish things could be different,

but wishing don't make it so.

Another marriage down the tubes

only hindsight could have known.

I will not fear the darkness

of this tunnel I go through

for I see a speck of light

that I am walking to.

I try not to take it personal,

the things that came to be.

You never said your sorry,

I deserve an apology!

I just want you to see

everything you put me through.

This way was meant to be.

Though I'll still be loving you.

by Penny
posted on 06/24/2008