The Painful Desire

They love me,
Some would loved me,
Some will love me.

This is a lie,
That love was a lie,
I'm in love,
But with it that I might never get.

Some said I'm living a lie,
As I'm not who they think I am.

My eyes can give it away,
The truth of who I am inside.

When a pink ray shined,
I shut my sight,
But when blue rays shines passed,
I stared, and lust encircled my mind.

Is this a curse?
Or is it just natural?
How will I continue living my life?
As I keep masking the truth, my desire, the lust.

Some thinks it's only about sex,
But no, it's love I want,
To be cared,
To be hugged,
To be fulfilled,
But I just might not get all this.

I might be killed,
By myself,
And I know by love ones,
As it will kill them too.

Help me please,
My silent moan of sadness,
My bloody tears,
I'm lonely.



Based on a true story, true emotions and experiences.

by scorpio
posted on 02/17/2007