The life of a lie

Can't stand the silence anymore
Thinking too much just hurts
Spaced out beyond belief
Ask me if I'm ok
I'm fine...

Blast this music until I can no longer hear the pain
Can feel it shaking my whole body
Don't want to feel anything else
Cut myself off from the world
So it can't hurt me...

Somehow manage to drag myself out of bed each morning
Only to spend the day in a daze
Rely on myself because others only hurt me
I think they're there, then they're gone
And I'm falling
Because I tried to lean on them...

And eternal sense of numb
It's better than the agony
Just trying to hold myself together
Sewn up my soul so many times
But the threads just keep breaking...

Every time I think I've found what I'm looking for
I reach fro it and it disappears in a cloud of dust and pain
Tired of being hurt so I just won't feel anymore
Cut off my senses
It doesn't hurt at all...

Yes, I know I'm just a lie
But I won't let go of this charade
It's killing me
But even though I'm dieing inside
To all outward appearances
I have to be ok
I'll be fine...

by Whitephoenix
posted on 10/12/2007