The lies start with 'I Love You' and end in 'I will never hurt you'

You say you've changed,
But I don't see it,
You say you love me,
But I'm sure you don't mean it.
The way you acted,
The way I was treated,
I seemed pretty replaceable, pretty outdated.
You must have thought I was kidding,
That I was playing your game,
But I told you I would leave if things stayed the same,
Breaking up was the hardest thing for me to do,
Because deep down I thought I still loved you.
What I don't understand,
What I really don't get,
Is how you think everything with me,
Is strickly forgive and forget.
I could barely forgive you,
Let alone forget what you did.
I felt so alone,
Like a lost little kidd.
Then after we break up,
After you say you love me so much,
You date another girl,
Then fuck her and such,
But then I turn around,
Get a new man,
I'm pretty sure that wasn't part of the plan.
I was supposed to understand your pain,
Feel a shitload of guilt,
But the guilt was nothing compared to the walls I have built.
The guilt was nothing,
Next to the tears I have cried,
Pain in my heart so deep I would wish I died.
I had to get past you,
Get over what we were.
You pushed me away,
For a while i tried to stay,
But I saw what was happening,
The heartbreak was frightening,
But i had to let go,
Because why hold on to a person,
Who not only doesn't want me,
But wants someone, anyone else?
Another game to be played,
That's what you saw,
You must not have cared,
That breaking my heart was your plan's biggest flaw,
I gave you so many chances,
Listened to everything you'd say,
But did you ever take the time to even notice,
How fast my light was fading away?
I guess I wasn't worth it,
Energy, even time.
How come it's AFTER we break up,
That you realize I'm not fine?
You found out about my new boyfriend,
You kind of went off the wall,
It started to feel like I was trying to run,
And reach the end of an endless hall.
So I gave up,
With that I gave up on us,
On everything we could have been,
Everything we were,
I knew what I was doing,
And I knew I was hurting me,
Who could have known you cared too?
Not me, for you never let me see.
Now I will continue to let go,
To attempt to forget the happy and remember the bad,
To hold onto the times that made me so sad.
Its easier to remember why I cant do this,
Why me and you cant be.
Never once did you consider how much you were ever hurting me,
I hid the pain as best I could,
I thought you were going to change,
Just like you said you would.
Another lie, this time with more pain,
I promised myself I would never go through that again,
It would drive me insane.
So I'm going to continue the silence,
Continue to mute what hurts so much,
And wait for it to change,
Because, unlike you, it really does quit hurting me after a while.

by lost2theWorld
posted on 03/17/2008