So Sorry

I'm so sorry.
I was drunk.
Not in the right mind.
If I could I would go back in time and never go to that party.
I'm so fucking sorry!
If you can find it in your heart please forgive me?
But, I'll understand if you cant.
But just to let you know.
I feel so bad about it.
I'm completely stressed about it.
Thats why I've been acting weird.
I'm starting therapy again soon.
I hope I get back to normal.
Please don't leave me?
I love you so fucking much.
I said no.
But he was drunk to.
He didn't listen.
And I couldn't even sit up straight
Let alone fight off someone twice the size of me
My 'supposedly friend'
I should have listened to you
And not have gone.
If I knew this would have happened I never would have gone.
In hindsight I was being stupid and retarded
And any other word like that you can think of.
But I'M SO FUCKING SORRY!
You don't even know how much.
I love you so much it hurts.
So I hurt myself in return.
I'm sorry about that to.
I promised I'd stopped
But I started again.
There is so much I have to apologize for.
Please forgive me?
I don't know what will happen if you don't....

by AllAlone
posted on 09/16/2007