Pain Of A Thousand Years

I was going to write about your pain, how you must of felt,
Then i started thinking, and i thought about me,
Trying to remember whats in that lone hole, dug into my heart so deep,
This whole thing started and i was so blind, it started in a week and i was terrified,
But i had to live up to my word so i did it anyways, but forgot you forced me when i fell for your gaze,
I loved you, and i always have, all these little things come up, all the things i think are really bad,
I forget about the rights and start counting up your wrongs, the whole time thinking that everything, thinking its all my fault,
I think about what's all changed about you, and i always think its because of me,
How the pain must of changed you when i was to leave,
But then i start wondering did you really change, or was i too blind to notices these things?

I fall to my bed, just filled with the weight of my guilt, your so happy and have moved on,
And then i start to think, did you ever really care about me at all?
Tell me whats so wrong with me that you can leave so easily?
Theres not a better time to have a broken heart then this,
When is all this pain going to quit?
I feel like im about to explode, i cant take it much longer,
Because what seems like a thousands years ago,
Is when you cared for my ryhming words,
Im walking on shattered pieces of glass,
Feet are scar-ed but they'll heal as times pass,
Every word you say cuts me like a knife,
To know i screwed up your life,
Because your so diffrent then before,
And because of this fact, the pain i cant ignore,
You dont know if you love me, but i know i do,
The pains so unbareable,
I have to do something about it soon.

by aqua4ever
posted on 05/26/2008