Not Of Needles And Ink (But Of Blood And Blades)

And the truth is
Is that I still love him...

So many times I tried to tell myself
To give up on him,
He's not worth the pain,
But being reminded every morning
The pain remains the same:

I'm still in love with you.

So much hurt you caused me,
Leaving me,
So torn and confused,
I was such a desolate mess,
Lost in my own dark world...
How I wanted you to tell me that you still love me back...

But then last month,
Everything made sense,
The truth became clear...
You're still with her
And the distance between us is the real pain,
And you feel the same way...

I'm so confused
And I feel so helpless,
Things aren't the same between us,
But I'm so glad to have you
Back in my life.
The healing is progressing,
But the emptines is still there...
The pain of being without you,
Slowly drowning in my own sorrow and heartache...
But somehow our love still keeping
Us together...
I wish I didn't love you,
I wish I could just forget about you,
But being reminded;
Not of needles and ink,
But of blood and blades,
Just constantly telling me that the past is real,
And you're not just some distant memory,
But you are love,
My love,
And it still hurts.

by LoveLiesBleeding
posted on 09/07/2007