My once precious jewel.

You were once there.
You were once mine.
My place of refuge.
My truest friend.
My sole confidante.
You were once there.
I was once there.
Standing right next to you
Side by side
Both of us
Inseparable we were.
But now
Everything changed.
Is changing
By the minute
By the day
And by the weeks
We slowly drift apart
I called you my best friend
And I was yours.
The closest I could say right now
Would be that we're:
'Friends'
It's all over
I took you for granted
How careless I was
If only I was aware
What a precious gem you were.

I wouldn't have threw you around
Like some kind of toy
But how regretful am I now
When all I have left is nothing
Complete
And absolute
Nothingness
If only I was aware
Of what a valuable jewel I had in my possession
I wouldn't have threw you away
If only I knew...
Everything would be different now.

There's nothing to be done now
I'm trapped in a box.
A box they call 'the past'
I'm struggling to get out.
But
There's no way
I'm locked up inside.
With the key thrown away
In an endless pit of misery
And the only way to free myself
Is
To forgive myself
And forget that awful crime I once did.
Allow myself to forget the past
And start fresh
Nothing ever happened, and
Nothing ever was.
I am who I am today
I am who I am now.
I am not who I was.
I am not who I used to be.
I am who I am today.
I could honestly say
Right at this moment
That I'm positive

I will never
Do that again
Cause' if I did
I would not only be hurting myself
But getting scared as well.


by poeticmarioomy
posted on 03/14/2008