Meth Lullaby

My stomache starts to hurt.
My head starts to ache.
my legs feel numb, boy was I dumb.
This feeling isn't like a normal high.
It's the kind of feeling that makes you think you might die.
My mouth starts to run dry.
There was six.
I counted them all.
My head isn't even beginning to fall.
It keeps me awake night after night.
I took about a weeks worth, but was it worth it?
It almost cost me my life, which is way worse then using my knife.
When we broke up today, I was gonna make you pay.
But not with my life on your soul.
I was gonna make you pay by not shedding a tear.
But now my head is full of fear.
we are back together but maybe it's too late.
call me.
hurry up.
why wait?
My hands are shaking and I can barely write.
Fuck our stupid fight.
I really don't want to die.
But you still made me cry.
It hurts that you said you didn't really love me.
It hurts that you said you didn't really love me.
But what's really dumb is I thought you were worth having a heart attack over.
seriously!
I love you to death.
But I kinda did meth.
Not the kind that you smoke then it kills.
But basically it's meth in a pill.
I didn't know what I was doing.
I just didn't want to fall asleep and dream of you.
Until after I took the meth pill that could kill.
And then you wanted me back?
Why didn't you tell me that you loved me before I took the meth in a pill?
But at least I almost died knowing that you loved and cared.
I know life isn't fair.
But I'm alive and almost well.
I used to feel liek I'm in hell.
But god saved my life.
It wasn't my dad, although it did help with the knowledge he had.
It was god's hands, and god's footsteps in the sand.
Yeah I'm a meth baby.
My mom and dad both did meth before they had me.
Meth is the reason we're not one big happy family.
I don't blame my mom and I don't blame my dad, But I do blame the meth that they both had.
meth is the reason for this meth lullaby.

by babylove
posted on 05/13/2008