Loves Not Fair

Sitting here
Watching all, but mainly you
Self centered is all you seem to me
But your overly friendly to everyone else

All over him, that’s what you were
I never thought it would happen
But I got jealous, jealous of a gay guy
Overly friendly, to someone who wont reciprocate
My innermost thoughts are alight
Anger and jealousy take hold
My childishness says your doing it to make me jealous
That you really just want to see me wither and die
To beg for mercy so you can relish my pain

But I know as do so many others
You aren’t half as bad as I seem to think
You try to do your best
Even if that means hurting people in the long run
I hate you for changing and leaving me behind
I hate you for never giving me a glance
But deep down I know
That that’s never true, I don’t really hate you
It just covers the pain and the fact that
I still love you

by nickson104
posted on 07/07/2008