Let me fall

Its not to late
its never to late
except when everything that once held meaning
now holds hate
except when hate is the foundation of your life
and your only goal is to stay alive

I look in your direction
hoping for protection
please I need you now
don't turn around
believe me the hardest part is breathing
let me fall
end it all
everythings gone and I'm alone

when I walk around I feel a zombie forming within
slowly moving each limb
dragging them along
wishing I could sag into your arms
hoping you'll appear
suddenly just be here
whispering in my ear
telling me its alright
that theres nothing left to fight

I look in your direction
hoping for protection
please I need you now
don't turn around
believe me the hardest part is breathing
let me fall
end it all
everythings gone and I'm alone

I turn around expecting you with open arms
but instead I get looks that cripple the mind
and devour the heart
passing glances that tear me apart
have they never felt real hate?
have they never had to fight for their lives?
I don't understand
why must I beg for compramise
when they beg for nothing
each day I get farther down

I look in your direction
hoping for protection
please I need you now
don't turn around
believe me the hardest part is breathing
let me fall
end it all
everythings gone and I'm alone

more alone then I've ever felt
I can't talk to anyone
they wouldn't understand
take my voice
take it now
speaking feels like pouring vinger into an open wound
the pain makes me want more
thats just one more thing to wish for

I look in your direction
hoping for protection
please I need you now
don't turn around
believe me the hardest part is breathing
let me fall
end it all
everythings gone and I'm alone

with an empty soul
happy to give in
fighting makes you tired
and all I want to do is sleep
and sleep I do

the only thing I leave behind
is the message carved into my arms
"So long hate = harm"

by ragingquiet13
posted on 08/07/2007