just too hard

i tried just too hard to open up m lock
that blinded my sanit and rushed my love
the agony that destroyed me and stained all my tears
the voice that helped me build up my fears
i screamed and i choked,
i feared and i broke,
the bonds that tried to
help and i pushed,
wept and i tooked,
myself out of this bliss
i felt that everything had fallen down
i tore out the stars that went around
i blamed everyone for not giving a hand
even if they are right beside me everyday they stand
im drowning myself in tears that flood
my pure white soul tainted with blood
my emotions burst with anger deep inside
i slept with a heavy heart, inside my head i died
if i care about mself
i would learn to unerstand
that the world does'nt turn around me.
you could see it in m eyes,
the pain inside me,
the hurt that grinds me,
that grips me tightly,
that kills inside me.
i wasted my time to drown my self in tears,
i wasted your time to hear me say these things.
that someone one told me the grass was greener,
that someone once told me that everthing is alright,
that someone once told me things will get better.
then how come things just don't feel right.

by phoephise
posted on 04/12/2007