It's easier to tell myself I love him

It's easier to tell myself that I love him
It's hard to believe that I don't
Losing him is nothing
compared to everything else I've lost

Finding the right words is difficult
When I don't know what to feel
Trying to sort it out in my mind
Is harder than it seemed

For a moment there I didn't need you
and the feelings dissapeared
But slowly they're crawling back
and with them crawls this fear

I believed myself when I was thinking
that I would be okay
Now the only thing left , is giving up
because I'll never be that way

What have I become?
Take me back to the sun
Can you give me back what I've lost?
or have the dark skies finally won

Where am I going?
I want to stay here
This pain is more than enough
Please take away these tears

What am I looking back on
that isn't helping me move on
Where exactly did I go wrong
It doesn't matter now, everythings gone

But it's easier to tell myself I love him
It's easier to believe
I'm pulling myself away
It's just a bit harder than it seemed

by childOFtheNIGHT
posted on 05/25/2008