Insanity

I though I would be fine
she is just a girl
I could stand with out her
shaking now

tears stream from my eyes
its not ok
I am not fine
I can’t even breathe

everything was perfect
she made me smile
she was just a friend
I knew I could not have her

but I wanted her
no I needed her
now I have wrecked every thing
they hate me

she said it was fine
that they all love me
they are my friends
they have no idea what my life is like

and when I try to explain
they talk about themselves and their pathetic money
that’s makes them oh so happy
well they cant lie to me any more

I can see their true feelings towards me
and its hate, in their eyes and in their lies
no one has ever cared about how I feel
and she hates me more then ever

I can no longer stand
my memories cause me more pain
my other half tells me I am wrong
that they care and they love me

but if that were true
then why are they not around
when I need them the most
no one is here I am totally alone
and I just don’t know
this is all that help
these words I write
they are for my self

there is one way out
That ends with light
maybe then she would notice me
maybe then they would love me

if they never had to see me again
then they would have no one to hate
they would have no one to help them with their problems
they would be happy

because I wrecked every thing
I ruined what little chance I had
she was just so beautiful
and I would be better off dead

by CrimsonRain
posted on 07/17/2008