If she didnt cutt... [Stop the cutting.]

[This isn’t my life story. it is some of my friends, it might even be your story, your life just starts to change all the sudden, you don’t feel like waking up, you don’t feel like yourself and u go to a knife for relief.]


It’s hard to keep living like this
I know my mom hears me cry
I know everyone’s watching me die

But I can’t stop shedding tears
I refuse to continue staying fake
“Be yourself they all say”
Do you really want to see me?
Here you go,
Eye liner smeared, tears going down my face
And a big fat frown right into place


My life isn’t going great
Everyone says it gets better
Everyone says they can relate
BUT THEY CAN’T

I don’t want to live
“Take me away” I plead to God
I look at a car.
I imagine getting in an accident
Replaying it in my head
Wishing it was real life

I don’t want to wake up
I want to stay in bed
“Mom I’m sick” I say out loud
“Don’t make me face the real world” I say in my head

I know I have friends
I love them too
I just don’t know
All I want to do is stop.
Stop everything.

There is a pattern
I figured it out,
After a half a year of this,
Happy one day
Sad the next three
Starving myself Monday
Eating the world Wednesday

I need help.
Save me. Please.

The razor blade answers my calls
I've watched & heard millions of stories about cutting


Maybe it will help me to...

[Aubrey was a close friend of mine; she had a lot of family problems. She ignored the world and took out a sketch pad. I really miss her. Stop the cutting. I know it hurts but we can’t keep doing this to ourselves. Self harm leads to suicidal thoughts please pray for help. People care about you.]

by YourmyChemical
posted on 02/04/2008