I let you win.

I hate that I loved you
I hate that I cared
I hate even more,
that you're never there.
You've never been helpful
you've never been true
so why did I let myself fall for you?

You ripped out my heart
and tore it apart
and I knew you would do that
right from the start.

I can't stand this feeling
or letting it show
but I feel a lot worse
knowing you know.

You know that you hurt me
You know that I care
You pretended to love me
and said you'd be there.

Those lies that you told me
we're more than just hurtful
they were heartless and hateful
malevolent, and vengeful.

You used me with ease
You didn't feel bad
that the things you were doing
were driving me mad.

I forgive all the things
and all the hurt that you've caused me.
I'll forget all your lies
and the things that showed me.

I don't want to ever see you again
I cannot believe I thought you were my friend.
Although I forgive you
one thing still holds true
there will always be a hole
in my heart for you.

I say it's a hole for solely one reason
It's cold and it's hollowed
marked with scars of your treason.

If I ever get the chance to ask why
you did all those things
as you looked in my eye.
I don't think I would ask you
I think I'd just leave
Fearing another lie you've hidden up your sleeve.

by Danielleybelley
posted on 12/24/2007